One of my closest friends and favorite people ever gave birth to her first child last night! Her little daughter is very much a miracle, as her parents struggled for a long time to conceive, and suffered a devastating miscarriage before this little one came along. This sweet little bundle of joy is also mine and Kevin's goddaughter. And I am so anxious to see her face and hold her, I can hardly stand it! Baby Fever is in full swing...but I'm praising God for the safe delivery of this little miracle and the the well-being of her mother (and her daddy, of course), whom I love dearly.
It's funny: sometimes I, like many other women suffering from infertility (primary or secondary, it doesn't fully matter), get terribly downhearted when my friends, who married around the same time as me and Kevin, have their third or even fourth child, or even when anyone has a baby, and I sit with my empty womb beneath this aching heart; but other times, like this time, all I feel is joy. It's not just because this lovely friend is, well, my friend; nor is it just because she's gone through what I'm going through, and has come out with immense blessings on the other side; no...sometimes my own problems just don't matter in the light of the pure goodness and joy of love made manifest. It is, I've come to the conclusion, simply God's grace.
I'm so grateful.
Sometimes I feel horribly guilty when I get down about others having babies, but now, when I'm called to help bring this sweet little soul up in the faith, assisting her wonderful parents along the way, I don't have to worry about that guilt. The joy is intense.
Although, I have to add that so is my anxiousness to see her little newborn face! Her parents, who I suspect went through a very, very long labor, are likely both exhausted, and they have not yet posted pictures, and as they live in another state, I am at the mercy of technology to see her. Baby Fever is roaring away! Must. Leave. Them. Alone...Need. Rest. :o)
For now, I am going to go pray for them all. I'm sure they could use it, and I need to be needed where babies are concerned.
God bless you.
Mary
I found your blog, Mary! It is wonderful. I totally agree about Baby Fever and accepting infertility according to God's will. Devin and I can have no more children, after Josephine's delivery, and I know that the ache will grow as Josephine leaves babyhood behind. But, we are consoled, as you say, that we can be mothers to multitudes of children, even if they are not from our own flesh. What a beautiful witness you are!
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